Date with lonesome Dutch babe

Everything has to be calm with me, I don't like pressure and I am extremely good at enjoying myself.

Looking for a charming man who's just as lonely as I am? Make me a tempting offer for our first date, and who knows, you might be the one to meet me and enjoy a wonderful evening with.

I often think, is this all there is? A relationship where I don't live together, but where it's already a rut? I could just write down how it would be every time we're together. That's not healthy, is it?

I'm coming out of a difficult period that has left its mark on my relationship. Something I find quite unfortunate. Perhaps someone can help me find my way through this?