Dating with beautiful Dutch girl

I've been single for far too long, and I hope I can find a lifelong companion here.

For too long, I've accepted being treated like a slave. Every time my boyfriend said he was coming over, I'd do my best to prepare a delicious meal, and he'd always cancel an hour beforehand. I don't like this anymore and want to meet another man who actually keeps his promises.

Unfortunately, I've already been through quite a few bad things. Divorced parents, which didn't go without a struggle, a very abusive boyfriend from an early age who took advantage of me, and an abortion. That didn't leave me cold, but it did bring me back down to earth. I'm now looking for a truly sweet man who has my best interests at heart and isn't just looking to take advantage of me.

I'm jealous of voluptuous girls. My previous boyfriend said I was a stiff little thing, and he was embarrassed to be seen with me. I know I don't have fine motor skills, but is that the most important thing? Inside, I have a warm heart, and that heart has been hurt enough. My heart wants to overflow with love for a nice boyfriend.