Dating with sweet Dutch girl

I finally found an apartment of my own. It took a long time, and I'm so happy because now I can finally fully express myself sexually. Not having to consider anyone, screaming as loud as I want, without having to worry about my parents hearing me. It'll take another month, but until then, we'll find another solution. Maybe at your place?

I'm done with school and can start my adult life, but I'd also really like to postpone it a bit and maybe go traveling. But I don't really feel like doing it alone.

I have no problem exposing myself, and I don't mind asking for it either. I dream of a hot guy who will caress me and with whom I want to spend a sultry night. I can't resist temptation.

A while back, I had my first boyfriend. It's already over, though. He deflowered me, but it wasn't quite what I'd imagined. It hurt, he was very quick, and not nearly as sweet as I'd hoped. Is sex so awful then? I always hear good things about it, but I really don't find it beautiful. Can someone prove to me that it can be different?