Dating with lovely Dutch girl

Hope can be a mountain sometimes, especially when the hope is big but the mountain just keeps getting bigger. My urge to enjoy life has become very strong recently. I could accept that, but I could also just do something about it.

Serious, gentle, and sensitive are my key words. This certainly applies to my love and sex life, although I'm certainly not an inexperienced woman anymore.

I had a bad experience and haven't had sex for a while because of it. I do play with my toys, and that's nice, but I still feel like something's missing. I'm looking for a man who has a lot of patience and can show me how good sex used to be.

Men, I can't be with them and I can't be without them. Look, for good sex, I need a man. Solo sex is nice, sure, but I prefer a man to get me off. But after sex, I've had enough, so you can go. Am I being too honest?