Fucking with sweet Dutch girl

My boyfriend thinks I'm too extreme and knows I'm looking for someone "on the side." He's okay with it. Do you have a problem with me having a boyfriend and it only being about sex?

Only strict men are allowed to respond. I want to be taken by a very strict, preferably older man. You really have to pin me down so I can't move. I'll certainly resist, but you tolerate no resistance and do whatever you want with me.

Sleeping alone isn't going so well for me yet. I've recently moved out on my own. And ideally, I'd like someone to give me a goodnight kiss every night. Well, a goodnight kiss isn't enough, of course...

It wasn't so great for me at the time; I've been through a really rough time. Very busy, arguing with my parents, my boyfriend leaving, you know how it is. Suddenly, you can't see the point anymore. Well, that's how I feel now. I feel alone and abandoned. That's why I'm looking for a man who might also have a hard time. Then we'll probably understand each other and hopefully build something together.