Dating with lonesome Dutch teen

Even though I'm in a relationship, I still feel lonely quite often. To give a very simple example, I deliberately stay over at his house for an extra evening, hoping for sex: he'll just sit around playing games or going out with his friends. And that's pretty much the norm lately. It's like he's completely oblivious to me. I even suspect he's seeing someone else. But what he can do, I can do too, only much better! So, guys, don't keep me waiting too long; I'm totally ready to be thoroughly spoiled.

After my last boyfriend, I was certain it wasn't for me anymore. No more relationships for a while, no stability. Well, a little stability is allowed, but only in the form of a steady sex partner. No relationship, just sex. Sounds ideal, right?

Get me away from the TV, lately I don't want to leave the house and I'm stuck in my Netflix series.

Everyone makes mistakes in life, and I'm already coming to the realization that I made them by being in a relationship. I miss that friendship, and that's part of being in a relationship. Who wants to be friends with me?