Dating with sweet Dutch girl

My boyfriend can't know that I long for an exciting connection outside of his knowledge. Now that I feel so lonely in my relationship, the only solution is to seek it elsewhere. Please respond if you, like me, are open to something wonderful.

I've always been shy, and I've tried to change that, but I can't. So I'm taking the plunge now because I know there's a man out there who will approach me, and it makes things a lot easier. What I can say about myself is that I'm sweet but oh so sensitive.

Don't expect me to completely adapt to you if we start a relationship. I have my own things to do, and I want to keep it that way. I did it once to adapt, and it had dire consequences.

My last date was such a disaster, and I want to forget it as quickly as possible. In a way, I felt sorry for the man, because no matter what I tried, his cock wouldn't get hard. Even a good blowjob didn't help. Just give me a date where your cock stands proudly erect when I give you a blowjob. Then I know I'm doing my job well. Can I do this good work for you soon?