Penetrate sweet Dutch girl

I don't know why I'm still with my boyfriend, because things aren't going the way I'd like. I like very different things than he does. He's the quiet type, and I'm the bouncy type. Going out into the world or doing something crazy—it's all possible for me.

I'm always rejected for my looks, and I know I'm not exactly the prettiest person I've ever been. But inside me is a girl with a very sweet personality, and that's what matters in the end, right?

What am I looking for? Friendship, mainly. I'm open to anything, really. But you have to be serious with me.

Being in a relationship but still missing out on so many things. This is what I have now, and I'm having a really hard time with it. I want to be able to spoil a man, but I also want to go on a fun outing. I also feel lonely sometimes.