Date with beautiful Dutch girl

It can be so lonely. I'm in a relationship, but he hasn't been in touch for a while. Every day I wonder if it's my fault. I'm really not difficult; I always let him do his own thing when he needs to. But apparently, I'm not good enough. I hope to find someone here to vent to, but also to go on a nice date with. Time is ticking, and life is too short to sit around waiting for someone who doesn't want to be with me anyway.

I've been fantasizing for a while about how exciting a sex date would be. Now I want to make that fantasy come true.

I've been working as a mistress for a year now. I also had my own slave, but unfortunately, he got into a serious relationship with someone else. That's why I'm looking here, preferably a permanent slave. I prefer someone who regularly allows themselves to be abused, with spanking being a frequent occurrence. I live alone and have my own playground. Please only respond if you're seriously interested.

I'm a bit fed up with it at home. When it comes to sex, he completely ignores me. Does he no longer find me attractive, or is he more interested in other things? It's a mystery to me, but I'm definitely not going to wait for him anymore!