Date with lonesome Dutch babe

A message that's just about how you want to spend the night with me is something I don't like. I want to meet a serious man who wants a committed relationship with me.

Sometimes I blush, because I'm shy. I'm quite insecure, so I really need some time to get used to you.

A while back, I had my first boyfriend. It's already over, though. He deflowered me, but it wasn't quite what I'd imagined. It hurt, he was very quick, and not nearly as sweet as I'd hoped. Is sex so awful then? I always hear good things about it, but I really don't find it beautiful. Can someone prove to me that it can be different?

I've had sex, blowjobs, anal sex, even a fling with a woman... But one thing was always missing... But maybe that's also because I haven't really had a steady partner yet. Would it even happen then?