Date with lonesome Dutch teen

I'm a bit of a late bloomer. I've never had a steady boyfriend before, and I think I'm ready for one now. I'd like to meet a sweet man who's open to starting a family.

I still don't understand why I moved in with that boyfriend of mine at such a young age! He has absolutely no respect for me because if he doesn't like something, he'd rather hit me than reevaluate the situation and admit his mistake! I want a man who will help me cope with my grief by spoiling me! I hope you're into outdoor sex because he can't know about it. Imagine what he'd do to me!

Before the questions arise, yes, I was born in the Netherlands but have a Spanish mother. Unfortunately, she died too young, but life throws a curveball at you sometimes. That meant I spent a lot of time in Spain with my grandparents. I love the country and would love to take someone there.

I often dream that I'm single again and doing everything God has forbidden. It's time I thought about myself again and left my boring, mundane life behind for a while.