Fling with beautiful Dutch girl

I don't have much experience in the SM world yet. What I do know is that I'm very dominant. I'm looking for a slave, but also someone who wants to introduce me to all the things there are to discover.

I was just sitting on my bed when a flash of joy went through my mind. I saw a strange guy in my bed, fucking me until I begged for mercy. Wow, a vision I'm going to make come true. Will you become that vision someday?

No matter how I do it, I never get it right. Why is it so hard to find a man who wants to go on a date with me? It seems like all the men are taken or that I'm not attractive enough. I honestly don't know anymore. I can't ask anyone for advice because I'm terribly ashamed to admit to my friends that I'm still a virgin. Should I just join a nunnery? Am I never allowed to know what it's like to have sex with a man?

I'd like to put my dildo and vibrator back in the closet. I hope someone comes along who can take over those toys, haha. I love being pampered for hours on end. At least I'm single, which is a plus!