Fucking with teenage Dutch student

Some of my friends are already in steady relationships, and secretly, I'm a bit jealous of them because they can do so much fun together. A nice dinner, a movie, or a trip. I'd love to do that too, but I'd have to have the perfect man.

Even if it's been awful for days, you can't make me grumpy. I'm enjoying life to the fullest and eagerly awaiting the sweet, attractive man I sorely miss in my life.

Every day I write down how I'm doing in my diary. When I read it back now, I think I've been quite lucky with my life, and that makes me very happy.

What I'm looking for here? Yes, that's a good question. I think my life is kind of rutted: work, study, and homework. And that's kind of the same with all my friends, so they don't really help me. So who knows, maybe I'll find a nice buddy here who can help me break out of that rut.