Penetrate beautiful Dutch girl

I don't feel loved by my current boyfriend, or is it because he comes from a family where there's no love? I hope to find what he can't give me here.

I was bullied terribly when I was younger, and now I finally have the courage to be myself. And strangely enough, after years of therapy, I'm still happy about it.

Living together and still looking for a fuck buddy? Yes, that's right. The sex with my boyfriend is decent, but I want more. I'd like to go to a swingers club, have sex in a pool or in the woods, maybe try a threesome with a man or a woman, and I'm curious about soft SM. These are all things my boyfriend doesn't want to know about, so I've taken the plunge and hope to find someone here who might already have experience with it or wants to explore it with me. Discretion is essential, and I can't host myself.

I don't actually do anything I don't support, I've been cheated often enough so I'll just let this happen to me.