Email cute Dutch chick

I'm often home alone and am starting to have doubts about the relationship. It seems unusual to spend almost every night alone, and my boyfriend doesn't come home until late at night. I'm looking for a fun man who wants to keep me company regularly.

I'm at a loss for what to do. I desperately want a master I can obey, but I can't find anyone willing to do the same. I'm a bit inexperienced, so could you help me?

I'm really the best at pampering myself, but I'd still rather do it with someone, just a lovely meal together, those little things that make life more beautiful.

Recently, I went into a swingers club with a friend but quickly left again. Neither of us dared to do anything. Now I really want to overcome that fear and actually go in there and have some good sex.