Sexdate with delicious Dutch student

When it comes to sex, I'm somewhat submissive to a man, so which man dares to take that control over me?

I'm a bit chubby, and my boyfriend wants me to lose weight. I feel great about it, and the funny thing is, I find it quite sexy to have some fat on my bones. I think there are plenty of men who appreciate a little fat on their bones. I'd like to see that and date someone who appreciates my chubby body.

I'm now well acquainted with the charming aspects of being single, and I still prefer to spend my life with a man. I want to start a relationship with the man who's right for me and with whom I fall head over heels in love.

No matter how I do it, I never get it right. Why is it so hard to find a man who wants to go on a date with me? It seems like all the men are taken or that I'm not attractive enough. I honestly don't know anymore. I can't ask anyone for advice because I'm terribly ashamed to admit to my friends that I'm still a virgin. Should I just join a nunnery? Am I never allowed to know what it's like to have sex with a man?