Sex with lovely Dutch girl

I'll get straight to the point: I'm a hopeless romantic and hope to find the love of my life here. I hope lots of men will respond. The better my chances of finding him!

It's high time to give up my single life. The man who's the best fit for me understands that and is willing to listen to who I am and what my personality is like. You can say that's okay, but I'd rather you discover that for yourself.

A while back, I had my first boyfriend. It's already over, though. He deflowered me, but it wasn't quite what I'd imagined. It hurt, he was very quick, and not nearly as sweet as I'd hoped. Is sex so awful then? I always hear good things about it, but I really don't find it beautiful. Can someone prove to me that it can be different?

Men always stare at me. I'm not saying this because I have a lot of self-esteem, I just notice it. And the attention is nice, but I want something more than just being stared at.