Date with beautiful Dutch girl

Everyone always says I should be a model because I'm so photogenic. And I do want to be, but not the way they envision it. I'm looking for someone who will take the photos I want for me.

I'm not really into rules and think that if you have a boyfriend you rarely see, you should be allowed to be involved with other men. I'd like to meet a really nice man who will come visit me regularly for an evening.

I often think, is this all there is? A relationship where I don't live together, but where it's already a rut? I could just write down how it would be every time we're together. That's not healthy, is it?

My desire for warmth and sex is growing. So far, I've only had flings, and that's fine, but I'd like someone for a (sexual) relationship, someone I see more often and who will discover all my nice spots and pamper me.