Fling with kind Dutch babe

I could post all sorts of things here about what I like, what I'm looking for, and things like that. But I also think if someone asks you this, or I ask you, the interest will only grow, right?

Everyone has a true love, I'm convinced of that. I haven't found mine yet, which is why I'm looking. I think I have a good chance here!

I'm still a virgin! I'm looking for a gentle man who will pick my flower! I've always dreamed this would be a wonderful experience for me, and I never want to forget that moment! I hope to find a suitable boy or man here who will make that moment very special for me! I can't wait!

A while back, I had my first boyfriend. It's already over, though. He deflowered me, but it wasn't quite what I'd imagined. It hurt, he was very quick, and not nearly as sweet as I'd hoped. Is sex so awful then? I always hear good things about it, but I really don't find it beautiful. Can someone prove to me that it can be different?